what i really want to eat tonight but won't because we are making a BIG SALAD

1. steak from al di la
2. french fries accompanying said steak from al di la
3. steak burrito from la tacqueria
4. chips that accompany said steak burrito from la tacqueria

commentary:

i will admit i feel conflicted. i do want a big salad, but i really want a big steak. i could eat both. do you understand? i have the urge to fill my entire mouth with food, as much as i can humanly fit in there, just because it feels good. it's a bad habit, but i have that urge.