my pms bordering on pregnant craving list
1. peanut butter and jelly sandwich
2. ben & jerry's cherry garcia ice cream
3. grilled cheese with bacon sandwich
4. pizza with pepperoni and a fuckload of cheese and garlic
5. salt & vinegar potato chips, dirty style.
6. brownies.
7. apple pie.
8. mcdonald's french fries.
9. big mac.

today
1. drank coffee.
2. toasted walnuts in fucked up teflon omelette pan i have to replace sooner or later but which will come with me when i move, since the new one. will remain here.
3. sliced strawberries.
4. ate two ("2") and ("3").
5. relaxed.
6. checked email.
7. chatted via instant messaging technology.
8. ate cubes of cheap generic cheese.
9. tried to read.
10. failed.
11. thought harsh thoughts of self for not being more productive.
11.5 spoke to sibling then mother and learned that father is leasing a mercedes and think this is absurd but not shocking for a man who not twenty years ago mocked people who drove mercedes automobiles.
11.6 spoke to poor girlfriend who is packing boxes of dishes in a basement in massachusetts.
12. prepared interesting thai-themed meal
13. plotted sinister revenge scenario with dear online friend
14. listened to wfuv to music from the 1920s and found it charming, but felt terror at the thought of the exaggerated vocal stylings of such singers as al jolson coming back into vogue at some eerie point in the future, and thinking that many bands will begin to adopt this style and it will be a freak-ass wierd future thing.
15. thought about peanut butter and jelly.

unusual garbage i ate today
1. .99 bag plantain chips
2. pepperoni slices
3. generic cheddar cheese

quality items i ate today
1. poached eggs
2. potato "cakes"
3. salmon
4. mesclun
5. several cups of starbucks coffee
6. mango
7. kirby cucumber
8. walnuts

amazing checklist festival
crafts, parties, babies, children, health, learning, life with kids, recipes, travel

mothers day
1. apple.
2. banana.
3. watermelon.
4. a few stolen walnuts, toasted.
5. black coffee.
6. receive moronic, bullying reaction from no-talent blow-hard on an online community that surrounds a gender role paradigm that can be lots of fun but is sometimes taken too seriously and inspires rigid, bigoted behavior that would be seen as unacceptable in a heterosexual context.
7. realize it's not about me.
8. receive support from several members of aforementioned list who appreciate my divine self and my version of being in the gender playground spectrum.
8.5. receive "apology" from said bully and know its intention is not clean.
9. determine driving directions to mother's house.
10. feel badly for pestering girlfriend for directions to mother's house.
11. realize: i need petrol.
12. think about stopping at starbucks on the way to mother's house.
13. fix filter from turtle's tank.
14. wash hands carefully with antibiotic cleanser.
15. make mental lists.
16. reject the making of mental lists.
17. proceed with dressing.

today's fruits
1. banana.
2. apple.
3. strawberries.

today
1. coffee ritual
2. pear
3. n.y. state cheddar
4. one ("1") grape from a cluster of grapes not belonging to me but to my girlfriend who is participating in a diet scheme known as "the dragon's way," which involves walnuts, qui gong, powders, pills, potions and strawberries.
5. incense
6. email
7. news
8. transfer dragon's-way-unaffiliated (hereafter referred to as "dwu") raspberry tea from kettle to glass vessel per girlfriend's polite request
9. exercise
10. corporate I take-home final
11. grooming
12. prepare meal
13. partake of public transportation so as to engage in social activity

what i would like to buy right this minute
1. medium sized ll bean tote bag with red handles, monogrammed
2. blue, cotton brooks brothers drawstring pajamas
3. a murray's antibiotic-free, vegetarian diet-fed chicken
4. a huge block of ny state cheddar cheese
5. a large bottle of dr. bronner's peppermint soap
6. a new dog for peggy
7. a package of college-ruled loose leaf paper

things i have to pay more attention to around the house
1. comb cats
2. squeeze sponge
3. put trash bag in kitchen trash container before depositing trash

what's for dinner
1. sliced kirby cucumbers drizzled with olive oil and lemon
2. crispy sauteed tempeh with sea salt
3. ricotta cheese which serves nicely as dipping sauce for said tempeh
4. scrambled eggs

what i'm wondering about
1. whether twenty-five cents buys ten ("10") or fifteen ("15") minutes in the dryer
2. whether perfectly normal, intelligent people can suddenly become stupid and clueless
3. whether i should begin to fantasize about my new life in brooklyn or in queens
4. whether i should read more poetry
5. whether i should begin to worship nature on a more regular basis
6. whether i will find my bongos in storage